was at barnes and nobles grading papers on saturday for 4-ish hours. which...in a perfect world means that i was completely productive and all my grading is done...but in this world means that i drank a lot of starbucks and did some journaling.
here's a piece of all that.
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nowhere near the halfway point of grading, and already i want to tear my hair out with the effort of it..."no babies," i want to say, "'because they look like it' - is nto an acceptable reasoning for congruence. where have you been all week?"
this morning, the ex i'm always writing love poems about sent me a text asking if i was sorry. "no," i say. "there was nothing false about me saying i was suffocating and your greeting this mornign proves it."
i started writing a poem about jeffrey dahmer. it's going to be a love poem i think.
speaking of which...
actually we're not talking about it. if i talk too much i might talk myself out of it. and i've done that once before. twice, depending on how you look at it, but we don't ahve time for that.
what do we have tiem for? let's see:
we have time for daydreams always. here we go:
in a perfect world, me and my closest friends would be at a bonfire on a beach in fiji. there would be poets (because there are always poets) and all the activists whose causes have been won, because why else would we have time for relaxing? no one would have jobs, but it wouldn't matter, because we finally will have tapped into the power of our words, and everything we needed we would make manifest by speaking, or with practice, by thinking. leah would play the guitar. it would remind me of why i believein lvoe at first sight, and i would have learned by then to be frearless. "galumph these nuts" would be an inside joke we'd shout at each other across the flames. my baby sister would love to be alive. our tether to the earth would not be so paper thin and there would be no more need of recklessness. ultimate uno would be the sport of choice, adn i would win 37% of all games. the others, a toss up among the guests.
alright. back to grading.